Where in the world did you go??

So the past couple of days I have been M.I.A. due to issues I had to face lately. I was talking to a boy whom I thought was a good one, but turns out he was a douche bag. Oh wow how does this happen? Oh yeah they are all in the same group these boys, the one that will make you feel all great and then BAM they destroy you like a wave hit you. Last night I thought about my ex, yeah I did kill me! I didnt even know why, maybe because I was on medication (I was really sick AND A LITTLE OUT OF IT!!). So, I suddenly thought and wanted to talk to him. It was weird because I regret it now. I do, I told myself today it was in the past and I shall forget it. I mean I was lying to myself if I wanted to be with him. I couldnt believe how stupid I could be but we all had a moment were we just dont want to be alone. But today I figure out that I dont want anything. I dont want to be with someone for the hell of it, I want to be in love with someone and if I can not have that right now I rather wait. I don't want a douche-bag. Yes I said it, I dont want to have a "bad" boy or some type of jerk for that matter. I want someone that was just a good person. Right now I don't even think about it Im actually done with the thought of attempting.

So I leave for my trip in a matter of a week and a half and I can not wait to plant my butt on the beach drinking some Fruity drink:)
Yeah you heard me! On a beach, tanning, and partying & having a fling. I always wanted that, that fling where its a lovely dovey for that one long week, and you just live it up but then you come back to life when you go home. Those are always fun!

Well I need to update .. big time!

Goodmorning y'all!

Well its a beautiful day... not! So Its interesting, Ive been talking to a guy whom seems like he is a great catch, now one small problem.. I thinks its too good to be true. I mean yeah it would be amazing if he is right but lets face it, now-a-days boys lie and lie till they are blue in the face.. hmm.. can't we just find out if they were telling the truth by a button? Much easier.

Well hope you guys are having a great week and enjoying it as much as possible.

Changes.