Where in the world did you go??

So the past couple of days I have been M.I.A. due to issues I had to face lately. I was talking to a boy whom I thought was a good one, but turns out he was a douche bag. Oh wow how does this happen? Oh yeah they are all in the same group these boys, the one that will make you feel all great and then BAM they destroy you like a wave hit you. Last night I thought about my ex, yeah I did kill me! I didnt even know why, maybe because I was on medication (I was really sick AND A LITTLE OUT OF IT!!). So, I suddenly thought and wanted to talk to him. It was weird because I regret it now. I do, I told myself today it was in the past and I shall forget it. I mean I was lying to myself if I wanted to be with him. I couldnt believe how stupid I could be but we all had a moment were we just dont want to be alone. But today I figure out that I dont want anything. I dont want to be with someone for the hell of it, I want to be in love with someone and if I can not have that right now I rather wait. I don't want a douche-bag. Yes I said it, I dont want to have a "bad" boy or some type of jerk for that matter. I want someone that was just a good person. Right now I don't even think about it Im actually done with the thought of attempting.

So I leave for my trip in a matter of a week and a half and I can not wait to plant my butt on the beach drinking some Fruity drink:)
Yeah you heard me! On a beach, tanning, and partying & having a fling. I always wanted that, that fling where its a lovely dovey for that one long week, and you just live it up but then you come back to life when you go home. Those are always fun!

Well I need to update .. big time!

Goodmorning y'all!

Well its a beautiful day... not! So Its interesting, Ive been talking to a guy whom seems like he is a great catch, now one small problem.. I thinks its too good to be true. I mean yeah it would be amazing if he is right but lets face it, now-a-days boys lie and lie till they are blue in the face.. hmm.. can't we just find out if they were telling the truth by a button? Much easier.

Well hope you guys are having a great week and enjoying it as much as possible.

Changes.

Best Friend vs. The New Guy?

Oh come on you knew that this was going to be an Hot Topic! So today's addition, what would you do? Be with the best friend or the New Guy?

Now Bella has it easy, she has two good looking guys would basically die just for her! I think Any girl would love to have two guys to do anything in their powers to prove their love and devotion, but who would you really choose in the long run?

I mean Jake is the best friend, who was a pillow for Bella when Edward broke her heart. I must give him credit, a guy that devotes his time to show the girl he is the right one, Heck a lot of the girls would have choosen Jake in a heart beat. But, did he come at the right time?
I don't think so because when he is confessing he loves her, put yourself in Bella's position. The girl is madly in love with Edward, and I bet anything that we all had an "Edward" in our lives. The one guy that you loved the most and if he came back the next day you be with him.. am I right? The one that said all those things made you weak in the knees, and till this day your heart skips a beat hearing his name. Thats the reason why she picked Edward. She tried to get over him over and over and tried to think maybe Jake is right for me but BAM! He comes back...

Was it wrong? I dont know, was it right? Dont know that either but I know is that someone at the end always gets hurt.

Now when the darling Edward returns and everything goes back to normal something happens... we all do this... what we can have we want more! She falls for Jake... hmm.. typical?

Yes I called it out, the girl wonder what if I picked Jake? What if I would have been happier with him? What if?

A lot of girls do that when they have something amazing going on and then at the back of their heads they think, "What if?"

So really who is at fault? The two innocent boys that fight for her, or the girl..

For my pick I would have choosen hands down the best friend, but that is just me. And honestly Ive been in her position that you know question if I was really with the right one.

Book of the Week..

Check out this book that I must say helped me a lot when I was down and sad.

The Breakup Bible by Melissa Kantor

Tells a story of how a dependent broken hearted girl finds her way to become a stronger and better girl then she knew she was. It gives you this hope that even though we lost love, or was treated like dirt we can climb back up and be better then ever.
(Yes I know its a young girl but any girl can relate the feeling of being dumped and feeling worthless!) So follow the character Jennifer and her struggle to move on from her "soulmate".

I give it a 3.5 Out of 5 Hearts

And visit the Author's website: http://www.melissakantor.com/

Oh where, Oh where is prince Froggy coming along?

Hello Girls,

Today has to be a good day because its Monday. Wait, no it isnt! Its the beginning of the damn week.. I give up!

This weekend has been extremely weird, might I say. I mean I have been thinking a lot in the past 48 hours about this situation that had occurred last weekend. I dont know about you but I am one of those girls who in fact can NOT (and I repeat, CAN NOT) FORGET things that I have done EVEN if I wanted too! I don't know, its just my character to always remember things that had happen to me.

Lately, I have been thinking about why am I single? I mean I see all my friends happily in relationship and I just feel left out. Its like a birthday party that you plan and no one comes. The one where you made so many invites and yet not even one person, not even the Emo kid didnt come (Then you know you got issues!). I'm just saying that single life can be boring.

I hate it when someone says this, and I hear it all the time:

"Oh Hunny, you'll find the right one. Just wait, he will be coming on a white horse.."

I dont know about you but when did this happen where he was going to come on a "white horse"? I know where my lovely "prince charming" is right now...

He is either:
A. Lost in the forest because lets face it girls, boys dont know directions if they
wanted too. (BUY A DAMN GPS WE ALL KNOW THERE IS ONE ON YOUR PHONE!)

B. Banging Sleepy Beauty and then he will make his way ..
(This does not need an explanation).

C. He has his heart broken and he doesnt want to deal with another relationship Right now.. (Aw..he has some issues.. )

So many options to choose from!! How will I choose!!

Sadly Id take A because lets face it a man-whore isnt attractive and A rebound well those arent in my cards.

Oh what a great Morning to the start of this week.

Item of the day

I am in love with this bag, I was searching in the Coach's website and I came across this adorable bag. Its pattern is very simple yet very nice. It comes in seven different colours and above alL YOU CAN AFFORD IT! I dont know about you but I am in love!

Just Havent met you yet...

Have you ever notice that things always happen for a reason. Now I am not talking about the, "we were meant for each other" bullshit. I mean the whole, "I didnt know it can get ANY worse then this" Kind. Yeah you heard me, today was the most interesting thing ever. I just so happen to run into a ex boyfriend of mine (whom I still to this day will feel for) and like every time I see him I fall into pieces. Lovely. Why on earth do we have to feel this way? Is it some kind of sick exciting adventure that we want to deal with? Now let me go home and sit in my sorrows while others have a lovely time tonight.

In other news in my life, I have been dealing with a friendship with a guy whom I known for years. This boy and I have been liking eachother at different times, sometimes we liked eachother at the same time.... Now... wait doesnt this sound like an episode of Friends where Ross and Rachel go at it at each other. Hm.. my life is a show.

You may think, aww what a poor girl.. Oh boo.. please you are probably saying.. oh calm down their will be "the one" coming along... Okay now if I have to hear that for the who knows how many times I've heard it... Im going to scream.. well you may not hear it but surely the people that surround me right now will. Hmm..

Oh Im sorry, Im Vanessa.. and this is my blog. I decided that I would love for you to come into my life of how I fail at relationships... but everything else is so perfect.. Oh wait... that is a lie too. Dam Im in shambles.

So today I was listening to Michael Buble, "Haven't met you yet," and there is one qoute that sums up my past. "I've broken my heart so many times, I lost count." Hm.. well.. yeah? I have and I think probably a lot of you did too. I don't like those people that met "the one" at such a young age and its all perfect lovey-dovey. No.. that's impossible. The only people I know who can be like that are much older individuals.

In case you havent notice... Im Having a wonderful day... lie again..


XOXO
Vanessa